cycles

I am
I am separate
I am not
I am all
I am That

This is all my whim!

Ai am the song
Ai am the instrument
Ai am the player
Ai listen

in all my glory and splendor
Ai dance a thousand rainbows
There is nothing before me
There is none other than me
all abides in me
Ai arise

This is all my whim!
This is all my whim!

ice cubes in the ocean

we are icecubes in the ocean
made of the same one substance
appearing as seperate

death is the dissolution of the ice
into the waters of everything

it can be asked "where did the ice go"?
it went to its source
it was only an appearance
caused by an contraction of energy called freezing
its death can be called melting

we are no different than ice cubes in the ocean
once what you are knows itself
you see that you have always been the water
no matter what is happening
freezing and melting are merely
movemements of energy
they are seen as your nature
and you no longer become identified with the process
they happen within you
just as you are the very waters
that surround the icecube

Ai

Ai am all yet all is within me
for Ai am nothing appearing as everything

Below, Beneath and Before

We are nature, The Tao, That, This, It, Guru, Shivaya
Believing ourselves to be people we are reduced to the idiot
The great intelligence forsaken
For the smallness of being some-one

You have been sold on the mirage of becoming
The sentimentality of being spiritual and loving is an even greater deceiver
Does the Sun say it is giving when it warms the solar system
Does the lioness consider herself to be nurturing when she feeds her cubs
Does the earth cry when we rape her

Nature appears as love and violence
They are sisters
Do not attach to either and you will see they are your reflections only

Awaken to truth that you are NOT what you mistake yourself to be
You are That which is below, beneath, before
Once this is seen there is no below, beneath or before

There is beauty, immensity, bliss, but not as you dream of
It is impersonal, greater than the individual
And can not be experienced, you are the beauty you seek,
but so long as you take yourself to be a person
you remain hidden behind a veil, as the moon in her reflection

virtual reality

all is not as you take it to be
there are no physical people, places or things
these are only virtual realities in consciousness
there is no such thing as your consciousness or my consciousness
these are also virtual realities
anything we perceive are only shadows of the One
you are not a person but eternity itself
this can only be seen through recognition
not by "you", but that which you are

rapture

love gives to give
seeking nothing in return
as the sun upon a flower

the flower thus filled
swells with sweet perfume
for the world to partake

such is natures way
be as the sun and flower
and be quenched with giving

breathe

God is everything that is seen
he flows also as the seeing
for the seen and seeing are One

He is every thought, feeling and emotion
do not deny them, they are Him
He is continuous yet timeless
This is His blossoming
Love is his fragrance

Ai am He

undivided

there is no doer, action, instrument or seer
there is only ONE, undivided

Ai am neither the perceiever, actor nor the action
these are included in me
Ai am the meeting point

Love

"Rare are the men and women who know how to love, which explains why people are unhappy, even when they believe they have found the so-called ‘love of their life’. To love does not mean to concentrate all your attention on one man or woman, and when you limit yourself in this way, you become poorer. When you truly love, your love for another is enriched with your love for the entire universe – for all creatures and all creation, from the stones to the stars. In this way you pour treasures into the soul of your beloved.

To say to a man or woman: ‘I love no one but you’ is of no real advantage to this person, and in fact it is the surest way to impoverish him or her. Unless your heart is already full of love for others, your love brings your beloved nothing."

Mother Jasmine

seeing

something happens to man in his infancy
where he contracts energetically
into a separate beingness

this is only an appearance of separation
there is only one universal existence
flowing in complete accord with itself

but in the energetic contraction
man sees himself as an individual or person
this contraction occurs in the cognizing process
where the ethereal or subtle matter we call thoughts
are taken to objects that we are creating individually
leading us to the belief that we are the doer
that we as an individual have the power to create and manifest
this contraction is the ego or mind

liberation, illumination, enlightenment
ia release from the contraction that we are separate
and is a return to a natural functioning
like that of a newborn child
even of plant, mineral or natures creatures

creation is then seen not as individual but universal
each event, object, thought is seen as a timeless arising
an arising within itself

this is strange to comprehend because it cant be
understood by the individual
the “you” must evaporate for this to be seen

you will try to see it through the lens of a separate identity
but only in the dropping of the lens will it be revealed
not revealed to you but become self evident

you can not do anything for this to occur
it is already occurring but the contraction that
has you see yourself as separate creates a veil
and blinds you to what you are

this is not a prescription to take any action
it is only a description of a seeing over here
there is no purpose but its own expression

when you see, and i see, we merge
we are already merged! but this is figurative, poetic
a dance of being and of life

this is the singing of a bird
it knows nothing of its melody
other than the rapture of it

it arises spontaneously
from nowhere
from within and without

seeing is like realizing that
the reflection in the lake is not the moon
seeing that you are the moon, the lake, the reflection and the seer!

however this realization only occurs when
there is an expansion in the energy
this expansion can be taken to be spontaneous or as a ripening
it is both since it is timeless

when it is seen all paradigms that exist
in the contraction of being separate blow apart
its as if there exist two worlds on top of the other
this can be seen as a miracle of miracles
but this is not as mystical as it appears to be
it is a function of raw intelligence energy manifesting itself

it cant even be said if anything is manifesting at all
“being” is commonly used but i prefer “are”

any description destroys what this is
not only cant it be described
but the very attempt at comprehension is
an act of separation
this process too is contained within totality

these words have already died
they survive this expression

the dance

All this spirituality, understanding, seeing can be reduced to flow. Flow of energy, chi, prana, oneness, the great intelligence, totality, vibration, sound, light, whatever you want to call it. Happiness, joy, love, compassion are expansive, fear, greed, hate, desire, are contracting, peace is stillness. Simple as that. This is all that is happening and you are not only what happens inside this movement but you are the very movement itself.

You can not direct this movement since you are it. Its (your) very flow is intelligence which, in its every action/projection, is in accord with itself. you cant even watch it since you also the watching. you are a boundless ocean of being seemingly flowing. what arises in boundlessness is not important - awareness can be of the ethereal or of chopping a tree or solving a mathematical equation. These are absolutely ALL THE SAME. you are that which arises.. you are the tree, the chopping, the chopper. the mathemetician, the equation, the riddle and the answer. this will never be understood but perhaps seen. seen by no one but by the very flow, intelligence itself. there is no point to it but itself.

The consistency of being embodied in a physical form is the firmament of what you take as reality. this is why you can not beleive you are god. how can it be so that this little person is it?! there is not an answer. when the question stops, it is seen. nothing can stop the question but the flow, which you are. you cant allow it to happen, wait for it, make it... you are it. do whatever you are doing. it has already happened and you already are what you are!

this is the dance.

such is my dance

such is my dance
i sing my song through you such that i may hear
i suffer through you such that i may feel
i laugh through you such that i may rejoice
i am born through you such that i may live
i die through you such that i may return

i give you others such that you may share
through your sharing i see myself

what you think shall be
and what you think is also given by me

your breath is me
your sight is me
your feelings are me

i am your words
your subjects, your objects they are all me

i am the reader, the writer and the publisher
i am also the critic and the follower

i am the seeker and the sought
i am all there is and there is nothing that is not

there is no difference in me and you
other than one sees and the other dreams

vision

i speak of a vision
where the dreamer is the very dream
hence can not awaken upon his own beckoning

what are you trying then to attain
there is no point at all
only this aliveness
to which there is no beginning nor end
it has no purpose other than itself

divine, sublime, godly are mere terms
to whom or what do I offer my worship?
i extol certain beings as realized and avatars
they are none other than manifestations of myself

they are contained within my being
they arise only in me
without me they can not exist

Bruce Lee

  

The void is no mere emptiness, but is real, free and existing. It is the source from which all things arise and return. It cannot be seen, touched or known, yet it exists and is freely used. It has no shape, size, colour or form, and yet all that we see, hear, feel and touch is "it". It is beyond intellectual knowing and cannot be grasped by the ordinary mind. When we suddenly awake to the realization that there is no barrier, and has never been seen, one realizes that one is all things, mountains, rivers, grasses, trees, sun, moon, stars, universe are all oneself. There is no longer a division or barrier between myself and others, no longer any feeling of alienation or fear. Realizing this, results in true compassion. Other people and things are not seen as apart from oneself, on the contrary, as one's own body.

"ARE"

awakening is merely the clarity
that that there is no past and no future
that there is neither place, neither in time, nor out of time

only a meeting of
the hearing, the sound, the heard and the hearer
of the seeing, the sight, the seen and the seer
of the tasting, the taste, the tasted and the taster
of the sensing, the sense, the sensed and the sensor
of the desiring, the desire, the desired and the desirer
of the thinking, the thought, the object and the thinker

there are no answers and no questions
there is no difference between form and formless

There is no living in do’s and dont’s
Who is there to do?
Who is there to be still?
Who is there to be quiet?
Who is there to understand?
Who is there to live?
Who is there to even be the instrument?

there is no one, no individual, no person
you are not you
you are not that
you are not this

this is this and there is no that
there are no multiple dimensions
there is not even one dimension

there is no being
there is only “are”
not “you are” but just “are”
this is “are”
“are” is not now
there is no now
there is only “are”

“are” is impersonal
neither vast nor minute
“are” cant be said

all memories, appearances, thoughts, are “are”
there is nothing outside “are”
those things you think exist only exist in “are”
they have no separate nature whatsoever
nothing is separate

there is no consciousness
there is no presence
there is no intelligence
there is no reality
there is no truth
there is no one

these are only concepts
concepts are movements within
they point nowhere
because “are” cant be pointed to
“are” has no cardinal point
“are” is not even everywhere
there is no everywhere or everything
this implies a nowhere or nothing
“are” is neither, are is not even both

You will never get this
Because you are not
even “are” is not
“are” is “are”

Human Monkey

Father-son bond of Dick and Rick Hoyt

Speedology: Speed on New York on Speed

the dreamer is the dream

i stand upon a mountain peak
dreaming to be in the depth of a valley

who can guide me to where i already am
by what process or thought can i awaken

this way some say
others say no way

i satisfy myself that
life will live through this entity
and that clarity casts no shadow

the veil was lifted and returned
only to create another thirst

the thinker lives on

until it is not

the search i over
i am on a path to nowhere

i am not
but i think i am
this too is accepted
until it is not

seeing happened
now back to thinking
this is okay too
until it is not

what to do
what to say
other than whats done and said

enough
until its not :)

could be

that the path of the person is doomed
living in the illusion of self consciousness
the "me" being nothing more than the thinking mechanism
which is a machine that takes ownership of thoughts
and weaves a continuom of memory into a personal story

why do we insist we are so different than other animals?
our words are also cries, squals and barks
man has refined these vibrations into a more efficient means of communication
we have however become overdependent upon language
and live in a dream reality of our making

the world is one. connected. we can not be apart from it
yet we believe we live individual existences
this is the great delusion of mankind
because we think, we are. this certainly seems to be the case.

there are a handful of anomolies to this biological phenomon of man
those that seem to have lost sense of separate existence altogether
but then their claims are within a completely different paradigm
and we attempt to relate to what they say from our individual view
it is an utter impossibility as relating sight to the blind

my dilemna has been the search
my sorrow the frustration of "why and how?"
it seems time to accept the unity of existence
our place within it as a highly advanced biological supercomputer
here for a purpose we shall never know

what i do to you, happens to me
what i say is not my own but a collection of borrowed and assimilated words
my actions are only reactions to what i already know

what then can i possibly call my own
this is truly a virtul reality

the apple apples, the tree trees, the sky skys...
i shall just asheem
and asheem is no more an individual than my pinky is apart from my toe

nothing i have said is original in any way
i struggle to say something unique and it is an impossiility
just as my computer cant reply without inormation it already has

the mind of man is not
we listen and see and feel
all this is stored in the ether (wherever that is!)
and we tap into it over the cosmic ethernet

this is why i have been able to experience what i thought was a past
life of my grandfather or channeled other beings from outer realms

others have visited places without leaving the body
or seen past an future in others or connect with what they think are spirits etc

must be a connection to the universal mindsphere - zeitgeist

how often do you speak and not even know where the words come from?
they dont come from within but from without
the body is a play of elements suffused with the Great Intelligence

how this thing taps into that thing can not be known
because for something to be known it requires a knower
ultimately this thing and that thing are one so the question is false
as all questions are

there is no such thing other than in the illiusion of separateness
and anything the illusory "knows" is itself illusory

we are not inividuals but because of some sort of bio-energetic thing
we call self consciousness which takes ownership of thoughts

those that have been annihialated in what is comonly called a human flowering
speak as if they are no one, having lost any sense of individual whatsoever
they seem universally to be at a loss to communicate it
as language is the very limitation to what it seeks to express

i have a memory of this happening for me for a period of 3 days
the sense of self has returned so i have no way of relating to it other than
an experience which it was not because an experience depends upon the subject
and the I, the seer, thinker, was just not there
but it seems to be the only validation of anything of what i have said
i feel it was independent of all programming which at that point was cleared
the body had preferences but the thinker was gone
it seems miraculous that the body could operate without the individual
well in actuality it is for everyone but since "we think" it appears that we are driving

end of the quest

in searching for the ultimate
i had hoped to become something beyond

it has been an utter shock to find
"realization" is the lowest of places
calling for an utter loss of identity, purpose or fulfillment

no one would want this
it must anihilate you

the alternative is equally jarring
living in the world as a biological computer
running to win a race that has no finish line
stuck in a carousel of becoming what you already are

its all a virtual reality
a fiction of the so called mind

we foresake sight for the words of the blind
who weave poems of the oceans and skies

we follow in hope and create destiny, karma, cause and effect
laws, science, philosophy, spirituality and religion
to explain the inexplicable
the pursuit of what already is

i am standing at a stop sign
sensing that the turn to take
is merely the turn thats taken

thats all.

untold

light of light
illuminator of open skies and glimmering waters
dancing in the soft radiance of you
a natures blossoming

A Return to Time

An energetic contraction seems to have come with the flurry of meetings
The sense of someone has returned as if the clarity were a dream
Perhaps there was a sense of ownership there

What was being, is now in separation
There is still a sense though of “who is separated?”
But then there now appears to be a someone rationalizing again

Questions again and not clear seeing
there is no one to be upset
coming up for an apparent someone

The sense of time returns
What was effortless was
The “was” is itself the mirage
This is still felt

Who is this doubt arising for?
The desire for a return to no-one
The feeling of not being right
A feeling of helplessness –
This is what happens in the “original contraction”
Slipping into the dream is falling from paradise

There is absolutely nowhere to go from here
This is not even somewhere, its nowhere without the everywhere.

Timeless Arising

All is happening of its own accord
Thoughts appear, many of them the same as before
However there is no one to claim them

Things even become cloudy (but to no one)
This is too close to communicate

There has been only loss no gain
An utter evaporation of nothing
Even the memories are timeless now

The absurdity is that All is going on as it ever did
Even the persona remains

What has been all the mystique and fuss?
what has always been shall always be

This is more of a death than a rebirth
Nothing is next
Nothing has ever been but This
The timeless arising of being

Its all too simple
As if nothing has happened at all

THIS IS

I am no longer traveling through the world
The world travels through me* and arises in me

The personal reference point is seen through as a merely a reflection and is dissolved in being (Self)
There is no more individual that is going from place to place
Places, situations, things, people, and all of manifestation appearances only

The apparent manifestation is wondrously ordered and continuous
The succession is the firmament of the mirage reinforcing the illusion that the appearance is manifest and that we too are within it

Seen rightly, nothing is happening at all
There is no individual living life but only life living as infinite possibilities innumerably arising in awareness including the mind, body, spirit we take ourselves to be

All is One, the Great Intelligence
Its very emanation is it’s being, as is the fragrance of a flower

How simple and beautiful

This and only This
The I is This, That is This
This is.

* me refers to awareness which is universal and impersonal

who is there to desire?

so many have spoken of desire as the cause of suffering
the real question is "who" is there to desire

the very attempt to overcome desire
reinforces the identity keeping desire intact

be what you are and there is no one
there is only Atman (consciousness)

in absence of you
there is no desire
only being only This

the other

find out what you are
to see you are not the person
but the consciousness in which all arises

recognize the other as just another appearance of what you are
then its just you-meeting-you and a delight in being

see yourself as seperate
and the other becomes a reflection of your false identity
and begins the struggle to be, to become

not known by choice, only in understanding
this happens before the mind
in the knowing of what you are
in itself of itself

be the love

dont get caught in the relationship
father, son, mother, daughter, friend....
be the love between

our language points in the wrong direction
with i love you, do you love me, i love this or that
our actions also falsify its nature
love is nothing that we actually do or receive
we seek love, yet we are immersed in it
nearer to us than breathing
merge with it and it is Oneness itself

do love, and it is from a desire
expect love, it is from a fear
be love, and there is only One

simple

meditate on the meditor
abide only in the Self

curiosity

curiosity is the hearts eye

romance

romance pales to love
but as loves servant
is a living poetry

i pray

to behold and carry the light
to love and to serve
to be complete within myself
without limitation

to quench my suffering with wisdom
and the patience to allow the divine flowering

the promise

just as the seed contains all it will ever be
the future of man is determined upon his birth

not every seed will flower
not every man shall bloom
yet all is perfect
for through the cycle of birth and death
the promise of attainment is inevitable

whether you be a rose, tulip or wildflower
in this illusion of time
each moment reveals your destiny

and do not mistake “will” as your own
for this is the play of the ego (the false-self)
remain the witness and observe divine force surging within
perform action only as His instrument
and delight in His flow
be the river and the course shall follow

emergence

* "Life on the Moon"

fight not your invisible enemies
for these are not battles that can ever be won
the real demon is the untamed mind
awaken as its master through self-inquiry
and enjoy the precious ride through infinity

* painting by http://www.lynnefife.com/

Lauryn Hill

Ive been listening to Lauryn Hill and coming to appreciate her spiritual wisdom...

"...truth comes from the inside not from the outside... we protect the outer man when our inner man is dying...... and we want to defend this curse..."

Khanna Uncle

living amonst us i took for granted your most special qualities
now you have passed and the tragedy is that I never touched your feet
bowing to your grace, humility and loving nature

you were divine and the most loving of persons
I thank you for the prayers you offered
for your peaceful nature, your radiant smiles
and for the softness of your eyes and heart

in your dance you were innocent and happy
you were someone that continuosly surrendered to divine will
suffering with such grace

you are sure to have an exalted birth
carrying your peace and understanding to the next world
you were a saint amongst us – a living example of godly nature

I offer my respect and prayer

myself

how can I truly experience beauty, love, joy
without seeing it within myself

doesn’t the bird sing
the flower bloom
from a love it feels inside

free will

there is no question of free will
the totality acts through us

true freedom is only had when we release our identification
with our egoic identity

our only responsibility is to act without regard to the outcome
being utterly spontaneous without interference from mind
will result in right action with no further karmic ties

action from mind is destined to bound to lead to karma
instead mind should be an instrument just as an appendage
from there wisdom may flourish